UNSETTLED FEELING

This will never over I guess. This irritating feeling will never fade away. Yes, keep on fooling yourself. I'm a dead man walking now. I am not in love, it is just already became a habit. A very very bad habit. That is why, always guard your heart. No matter where you are, and who you are.

Sad..you feel the burden just by yourself. I can't share it with anyone. Keep it to myself. Silently, roses grow in my heart. Don't forget the thorns. Yikes, I'm not here being an emo shit. But , I'm just saying. Well, I say nothing actually. I am just twisting my bloody words. Enough with words twister, I've never been in love but I can't throw out this one picture out of my mind. He should not enter my mind at first. 'BWAHAHA SILLY GIRL!'

What do you expect me to do now?


GO DIE.

NO WAY!

HARIMAU MALAYA DANCED WITH CHELSEA.

My title might be offensive but please, do not take it seriously. I am a Harimau Malaya fan though. By the way, for the first time ever I feel like filling up this post with photos. Blergghh, putting photos on blog is something that I do not really do.

On 21st July 2011, Chelsea came to Malaysia for their Chelsea Asia Tour 2011. I went there with my best friend and some other guys. She went there with complete stuff as a Chelsea fan. She got her jersey on, flag with her and honk. Meanwhile, I just went there with polo shirt and nothing to show off that I was a Harimau Malaya supporter. Luckily, she brought a Malaysia's scarf and I bought a honk in yellow. I was able to start my action proudly.

Seriously, I expected a lot from the game. You know, Chelsea was on the field. If you were me, you would have the same idea. I did not expect much from Malaysia's team since the ones that was going to the field was the second team. But I did not know that the game would be that bad. They were like dancing together but in different situation.

Becoming football player is never easy. When I was watching the game, there were some morons who kept on shouting and cursing them. I felt like asking them to go down there and show their damn skills. Too bad, I was not that rude. So I just kept it shut and concentrated the game. Based on my observation throughout the game, our team did a lot of silly mistakes. They seemed like they were not focus. They did many of times passing the ball to the Chelsea players. Come on la. Yes, I know football is not as easy as you watch. But that what I saw. And how Chelsea played, you do not want to know. They were not play like Chelsea. That is all. How they got the goal, free kick. It was not a 'beautiful' shot at all.

Whatever it is, I really hope that the next game our team will show drastic improvement especially when they have to face the international players. They need to run faster. For real, one of the obvious weaknesses you see. I do not dare to comment much on the game, I was  not in the field. I did enjoy myself. And I really love my beautiful country, Malaysia. God blesses my country. Amin.

TRYING

So irritating when you feel very sleepy but you cannot sleep. I have been trying not to fall asleep since 10am and now is 3pm. I have done filtering three scripts and, right now I am supposed to continue creating the elephant model instead of blogging. But dude, I am insanely sleepy. Well, I know why. I did not rest well for more than a week. Been so busy lately.

What do people do to stop feeling sleepy? I've tried so many kind of ways but none seemed to work, well...except you go to sleep. I used to have this disease when I was in lectures, but now I am not. I am hoping something excited will happen and help me to wake up from this damn dreamland. Maybe someone should put a prank on me and make me scream out loud. I am sure I'd be awake by that time.

I think better I continue modelling the elephant or else I still have to do it when the college starts. *slaps my face*

BERSIH KE?

BERSIH 2.0
This is silly, I know. At first I thought Bersih was some kind of like a 'project' from the government to 'clean' the city. Since I even got an invitation on Facebook from a bloody guy which made me got this idea of the so-called-government-project. Apparently Bersih has nothing to do with the government at all.

After I've got the real idea of what actually Bersih is. It is all about fair and clean elections. I have no idea what behind the scenes, whether clean elections really happening or not. I just heard from the news and papers which I do not feel it yet. But yeah, I'm damn late to talk about it now.

Bersih acted 'naughty' when they called themselves as Bersih (clean) but they threw rubbish around during the rally. More nonsense, when they brought their children to the rally. Why? To show to your kids, "When you grow up, please destroy the government?'. C'mon, kids they do not understand a thing about this political matter. Even myself 19, still do not get it. Worse, these people who were up for the rally, PAID. They were paid RM200. For more details

Our 'unfair' elections have been continued for so long. At least, I feel the government is being fair. I can't see the government is being cruel to the citizens. Why do people have to create chaos? Enough with damn rapers,  babies dumping, and other serious issues. Why don't we have a rally over those things instead of things that don't bring any benefits to the citizens but to the politicians. In the end, the politicians will hold the crown and rule us. And we still below their feet.

As a young generation of Malaysia, I hope that the OLD generations will think wisely. Enough cracking silly jokes, or else we won't have the chance to raise this country up.

KAU CAKAP, KAU MATI

This is what happened in Ipoh, Perak. Students were beaten with a piece of wood, kicked, pinched which led them to injuries by a teacher. And why it happened, because this boy was caught talking to his two other friends. The teacher dragged three of them to the front of the class and did his "business" over there.

It's a sad news for me, because the boys are still kid! For me, 13 years are not big at all. They are still growing up, just entered higher level of education for sure they might be naughty and stubborn since they still carry their attitude during primary school.

The world has turned out to be really crazy. Teachers are people who supposed to educate the students to become heroes to the country, and to the society. But not by teaching them violence. Why does that guy want to be a teacher? Why? He wants to contribute to the society or just making money since for me, it's kind of easy to be a teacher in Malaysia. Yes, of course we need money to live. But make use of it properly. Whatever inside his heart, nobody knows except himself and God.

Nothing works if our hearts are not sincere in anything we do. And kids are kids, let's make schools fun for them. Cheers!

TAK LAMA LAGI

Less than a month and I will go back to Taylor's and start my semester 3. Honestly, this time I don't feel as excited as last time. Previous semesters I was keep on wishing that the time would move faster so I could go back to college. But right now....I just wish that, "Dear time, please be slower."

Nothing horrible happened, but the spirit and passion seem to be gone. And some people have showed their true colours, making me confused who to trust and which one is the real person. College seems like another scary place to stay. But of course, I will just enjoy my years and get good grades. Blerghh...speak like I am one of the goodies-goodies haha. Speaking of being a good girl in college, I think I have passed! I did not loiter around, I did not bully the juniors (As if I had the chance), I wore appropriate clothes. I even attended all the classes! LOL.

Third semester surely won't be the same. Things gonna be damn different this time. May good changes will happen. Amin.

SEE YOU TAYLORIANS ON 1st of AUGUST!

LOVE FOOL

This is pathetic. This morning, I went to Metro Online to read some rare news. I found that Metro has more interesting news than any other Malay news online. This news is in the headline which is about a man married the other woman on the same date when he supposed to marry his girlfriend. Probably, he got married with his OTHER girlfriend too.
What makes me say this is pathetic, is the guy. He can't be a real man. He is NOT a real man. He is such a pathetic guy weyhh. Real men wouldn't make girls live in shame. I wish she would just go to that jerk's wedding and burn all her wedding stuff over there. HAA! I really would like to know more about the news but it says "Dapatkan akhbar Harian Metro untuk berita selanjutnya."     FINE.