FLUSH IT

This month is my most tiring month for this year. Even if I sung "Wake me up when September ends", it would not work. Because all this while, I have been shot numbers of time. Well, yeah, assignments and examinations were all cramped up in this month.

Amazing how old things go, and how new things come. Huh.. Amazing in a way of you have to worry of nothing because all you have to do is, breath properly. And keep your eyes, guard your heart well.

New things are waiting for you there. Go. See them?

Yeah.

HAVE FUN :))

GET ME OUT

Weird how people being suck. Oh yes, I am holding on. But I am planning to runaway from everybody and everything. Tired okay, and suffocating me. Really! I believe in whatever I do this time is right, I ain't listen to anyone who thinks they are putting me on track. No, you are not. I am tired of every drama that you gave me. I would rather be alone than to go through my life with you. Ahah, I sound like a girl with problems. I do, tell me who does not have. I am a hero to myself right now. I am not listening to you and you anymore. I am so damn tired. Do not be surprised if I am gone. No, I am not gonna run away from my house. That is silly. I am planning to runaway but to be found. RUN RUN RUN! *Keep calm* 

STOP

I have never mentioned you on my blog. 

Now I am mentioning you. :)

TRYING

So irritating when you feel very sleepy but you cannot sleep. I have been trying not to fall asleep since 10am and now is 3pm. I have done filtering three scripts and, right now I am supposed to continue creating the elephant model instead of blogging. But dude, I am insanely sleepy. Well, I know why. I did not rest well for more than a week. Been so busy lately.

What do people do to stop feeling sleepy? I've tried so many kind of ways but none seemed to work, well...except you go to sleep. I used to have this disease when I was in lectures, but now I am not. I am hoping something excited will happen and help me to wake up from this damn dreamland. Maybe someone should put a prank on me and make me scream out loud. I am sure I'd be awake by that time.

I think better I continue modelling the elephant or else I still have to do it when the college starts. *slaps my face*

TAK LAMA LAGI

Less than a month and I will go back to Taylor's and start my semester 3. Honestly, this time I don't feel as excited as last time. Previous semesters I was keep on wishing that the time would move faster so I could go back to college. But right now....I just wish that, "Dear time, please be slower."

Nothing horrible happened, but the spirit and passion seem to be gone. And some people have showed their true colours, making me confused who to trust and which one is the real person. College seems like another scary place to stay. But of course, I will just enjoy my years and get good grades. Blerghh...speak like I am one of the goodies-goodies haha. Speaking of being a good girl in college, I think I have passed! I did not loiter around, I did not bully the juniors (As if I had the chance), I wore appropriate clothes. I even attended all the classes! LOL.

Third semester surely won't be the same. Things gonna be damn different this time. May good changes will happen. Amin.

SEE YOU TAYLORIANS ON 1st of AUGUST!

TRUE

Someone once quoted out, "What's the point of explaining when your friends are not going to trust you and your enemies won't listen to you."

My mom even always repeats this to me, "When a dog barks, don't bark back."

I found that these are true. Why should I waste out my saliva saying something that people will judge later on. And why do I need to talk to someone that just going to harm myself. At least these two quotes really make sense.

BLOODY NONSENSE.

It's true, true friends are hard to find. And there are many kind of friends. Some might act like they don't care, but they do. Some might stay beside you forever and some might even stay beside you because of some reasons.

Last night when I landed myself on bed to get ready to enter the dreamland, someone bbm-ed me asking if I have any problems with this one mate. I was like.."HUH?" Why all sudden I was asked that question. I did feel that mate and I can't get along very well. But then, I just ignored the feeling. Like seriously, did I need to take a junk feeling as a serious matter?! What pissed me off is, they all knew about this matter for days and I just knew it last night. And I'm the main character of their drama. HOW COME?

I guess they are too free. HAHAHA. Thinking back, I found this is way funny. How come they created a fuss and got me involved and I did not even know a thing! At least, take note of my mistakes so you can bring them to the plots of the drama. U guys just mistreated a friend.

Anyways, I'm so thankful. I woke up with my family by my side and friends still around :)

HEAVEN FOR TUMMY

I'm insane, being too hungry. I went to Tumblr and looked at food over there. Yikes, I wanted to eat every single thing that I saw! Seriously, Tumblr shouldn't have those things! So tempting. I hope that I'll be given someone who loves to eat and has the wish to travel and eat around. Like seriously. I want to backpack and go around the world, take pictures, eat good food. One day, sure I'll do it. Even just by myself.

This is one of the food I want to try! I've got this from Tumblr which is called Beasty Guac Bacon Hot Dog. I guess.

THE FREEDOM

This is not about the freedom of expression or anything from the Article 10. But this is about the freedom of expressing yourself. I'm pretty much annoyed living here because I don't think people right here are 'open' enough. They love to give these cold stares to people who wear a little bit or slightly too much. I don't think getting dressed a little bit much is matter. Or too much is matter.

Who cares what she or he wants to wear? Like myself, I love to mix & match my clothings. Whatever I have and I feel it suits me, I'll just put them on. I don't think I have to think about what people might say. And through dressing, it expresses our personality or maybe mood. So, why do we keep our feelings? Just let them out through good ways. Yes, I can't deny..my own race is pretty much scary. They just give a damn to every single thing. I'm not being a racist or being a race wreck. But most of the times I just feel sorry for myself. 

Maybe we should start open up our mind WIDER than right now. Do things right but not everything has to be right. When you try to fix something perfectly, it always turns out to be a big flaw. So why can't we just follow the flow and accept then correct mistakes? Free ourselves and express them through any kind of way that you love. 

BACK TO THE CORNER

How I miss staying in Thailand. Like seriously, I miss my family over there. And the food.. :( I miss gossiping and cursing with my cousins in Thai. Yikes, I'll go back soon. So tiring staying here and you keep on returning to the same place. It's like, "GET OVER IT". Hell yeah, I'll make sure that I'll get married with a hot hunky Thai guy LOL.

PANTS ON FIRE

Hah! There you go, that's why people say don't lie. When you start lying you have to get along with the lies until the end of your journey. The more you lie, the harder for you to cover it up. So what's the point of lying? Sometimes, people lie because they do not want to lose something or somebody. And we also have the situation where you can't tell the truth, so you have to lie. I'm lying if I say I never lied. I've lied. But I don't find that lying will make me feel any better. AT ALL. My point is, why do we lie when it hurts so much?